Is to stop feeling sorry for yourself and dwelling in your situation. You have to really want to get over this chapter in your life and muster up the courage to close this book and start a new one. Re-writing it is always a struggle.. Because how do you even know how to even begin and where do you even start? But it’s a choice. It’s a lifestyle change and of course at first it’s hard to adjust to it, but once you get used to the familiar rhythm you can just sway along the way. I don’t fall into relapse anymore because I know that what we had is long gone and long lost. I know that you’re a different guy from the one I knew. You stopped caring about the way I felt a long time ago and you let go of me as soon as you had the chance. And that’s fine because it’s a part of life. It’s a part of growing up and becoming the person you strive to be. Letting go is essential and that’s why I guess I don’t have feelings of hate or resentment towards you. All I feel is… well I don’t really feel anything towards you. All I know is I don’t want to get back together with you and i’ve accepted that you’re not coming back. I’ve accepted it and i’ve learned from it. I stopped feeling sorry for myself. Stopped telling myself it was my fault or your fault, because things happen. Things fall apart and it’s all part of the inevitable reality of life.. That things fall apart so there’s room for better things to fall together. Isn’t it great though? To find the missing pieces of yourself you lost along the way in the ashes of what used to be? Some people leave it behind and lose that part of themselves forever but i’m choosing to pick those pieces up and polish them and create something better, something more beautiful than before. Essentially the key to moving on is.. to.. well, move on. Simple as that. When you finally take the actions to get up, you can only go up. It’s a hard thing, but a necessary thing.

Sometimes I wish there were people that secretly admired me.. Not in the creepy stalker type of way but in the “Man, she’s fascinating.” type of way. Like I wish strangers would drop by and send me cute little admiring messages on tumblr. I guess it would just be nice to see and be admired by a random person. I don’t know, I just think it would be really sweet. c:

Omg. I’m seriously in so much pain… It just sucks that for the past year or so my period has gotten so much worse… Like I feel so damn sick right now. I tried to take a warm shower to ease the pain but that didn’t work. I ate and took medicine.. And I ended up throwing up.. And I feel like i’m going to shit my pants every damn second. I’ve been running back and forth from my bed to the toilet for the past couple of hours and this honestly sucks so bad. I wanna cry… Apparently this happens to a lot of girls though.. I feel you my fellow females.. Periods suck and I wish we didn’t have to suffer with pain while having blood come out of our ovaries like Niagara Falls…